You Come and You Grow

Shame and regret are the enemies that lie awake when you want to sleep. How could I do this? How could I not do that. I’ve always chased perfection. It’s not achievable but I’m going to come as close as I can as fast as I can. My way or no way. I had things really backwards. That is not the way God says it is. First he tells me no one is perfect. Then he tells me change takes time. I have to be the most impatient person I’ve ever met. Instant gratification is probably my favorite. I have to destroy that concept. For all good things really do take time. Thank God for Grace, I feel like I’ll be here a while. I’ve only had a relationship with God for about a year and I thought it was just a breakthrough knowing God himself but no there’s so much more than that. I’ve developed a lot of peace during my time with him. That’s fading away as I’m waiting not on him but on myself. Learning to be patient and understanding with myself is the hardest lesson yet so far. This should be more frustrating then interesting. I do know when it’s all said and done the results with be better than I can imagine. He goes before me. I forget that a lot. This is not a race. With patients comes greatness.

Stay Blessed!